Thursday, February 12, 2009

Catastrophic Failure

Catastrophic Failure: a sudden and total failure of some system from which recovery is impossible.

This is how I feel right now. I never talk about my relationship on this blog, for good reason, but I will say today that my boyfriend of a year and half broke it off today and I feel like I'm dying on the inside. He has been my first serious relationship and although I am a strong woman I feel like I want to crawl in a hole and cry myself to oblivion. I feel lame and pathetic, and I'm sorry for putting that right out there for the world to read, but talking about it is the only way I know how to get over it. How do you heal a broken heart?

And what do you use to clean up broken dreams? Because there is broken dream all over my apartment and it's a mess.


I need a beer.


The Blonde Duck said...

I'm so sorry. I popped in from SITS and wish I could give you a hug and some pie! I know right now there's nothing I can say or do to make it right. But if you ever need a giggle, I'm here!

angi_b72 said...

Awwww hugs to you! Breaking up is never easy whether you are on the receiving or giving end. You need to keep your head up and know that you are a good person. Everyday when you get up, look in hte morror and say, "I am a good person and I am worth it" I knwo it sounds dumb, but trust helps!! Hang in there and know that this is not the end of the workd adn you will be OK!!!

Brandy said...

I'm so sorry! Stopping by from SITS to welcome I don't know the story but I believe that everything happens for a reason. If you are meant to be then you'll work it out.

And if not there's millions of other guys other there.

CynthiaK said...

So sorry to read that. Not even sure what to say, since I don't know much about you. (except that you like Flight of the COnchords, according to your post on my blog yesterday?!)

Anyway, use the blog to express yourself and know that there are lots of folks reading you that are wishing you the best.

And, thanks for coming by Crumbs. I wish I could hop a flight to Vegas and see those Conchords (since they're already sold out two shows here)...

Julie said...

Beer might be a good start (just one though) After that, just time and distance. And taking good care of yourself and realizing that relationship didn't define you. You do.

Island Girl said...

I realize there is nothing I can say to make you feel better, but I'm a firm believer/it's my life motto that "everything happens for a reason". Maybe this will still work out, but if not, maybe it's so that you can find someone that you never expected. Either way, let it out and know I'll be around to read :)

Ann On and On... said...

That sucks! Break ups are hard, but you can and will get through this. There is a better one out there and his last guy was just a practice lesson.

Welcome to SITS...have fun jumping from blog to blog. There are soooo many amazing women to meet. I am hosting a card swap and a giveaway right now...check it out. Happy Valentine's Day!

Rhea said...

Sounds like a sucky guy to break up on a day where you're supposed to show your love with people.

I know it doesn't help to hear this now, but good riddance.

Sharing your feelings, writing them down, is a great idea. Healing just takes time. Hang in there.

I'm part of the SITS Welcome Wagon! I've been a member since last summer, and I've read so many fun blogs and met so many amazing women through SITS. Welcome aboard!

Jen said...

Aw, I am so sorry. That really sucks. You need ice cream and more beer!

Visiting via SITS.

Allison Determan said...

I love you so very much. I'm so sorry you had to go through that crap with him. I wish I could've been there with you. You will meet someone else. You will feel better. You will look back and laugh at this experience...eventually. Believe me. You are so very much inside as you are outside. I am so very blessed to have you in my life and I'm here for you always. Always. :D I love you.