Saturday, February 28, 2009


So I was tagged by Island Girl for an introduction post! Here are the rules:
1. Go to your Picture Folder on your computer or wherever you store your pictures. 2. Go to the 6th Folder and then pick the 6th Picture. 3. Post it on your bloggy and tell the story that goes with the picture. 4. Tag 5 other glorious peoples to do the same thing and leave a comment on their bloggy tellin’ about it

I have to admit that my photo is incredibly random and not very

It's a Devo hat! Want the story? Ok. So the folder it came from was called Nervousness, which is a mailart website that I'm a part of (albeit not recently...I've had a little more to deal with and have put my crafting on hold). I was making some ATCs and needed a Devo hat for reference...and voila! Sorry it's not more entertaining, lol, I have a ton of crazy pics, they just didn't happen to be in this folder. :)

Speaking of crazy pics, I have some that I was going to post but I've misplaced my camera. I lose everything important to me at least three times a day, so I'll just have to wait till it pops up again to post I guess.

In the meantime, I am going to tag some folks whose blogs I just started following to keep this project going! I tag:

The Blonde Duck from A Duck In Her Pond

April over at April Showers

Crazy Sister from Graze If You Want To, But Don't Eat Dirt

Jamie over at Bumps In The Road

And my good friend Jess from This Theatre Life...

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

The Right Choice

Hello all!
First off I want to say that.... MY WALLET WAS FOUND!!! The amount of relief I have is amazing. Thank you to all of you that sent out your good thoughts. I got a phone call from the bar I had left it at right when I was on my drive home. It had been in between the wall and the table in the booth we were in. Same place. For four days. At a college bar. In LAS VEGAS. Seriously, what are the odds of that? I feel I'm very lucky. Very, very lucky.

A brief explanation of why I'm moving. So I had a job fair on Monday. I've been waiting for a month for this, I was all signed up, ready to go, had resumes printed, everything. I got there, saw my ex, and realized the only reason I was there was for him. I wanted to get a job to stay there for him. It's what I was "supposed" to do - go to Vegas and find a good job. I wasn't doing it for me, or because it's what I wanted. I was doing it for someone else and because it was expected. I didn't even go in. I left. Walked out. Decided right then and there that I was completely lying to myself about what I wanted to do and that really, I just want to be at home. I'm young enough, I don't have to commit to anything right away, and I just want to be with my friends and make some money in a place I enjoy. So at that moment, it was official. I was done with Las Vegas.

So yesterday I drove from Las Vegas back home to Missoula, Montana. For those of you that are curious, it takes about 13 hours, give or take. It's a very long, tedious drive...but I'm glad I did it. I'd rather drive than fly to begin with, and even if I had gotten plane tickets I couldn't have gotten on because I didn't have my ID. The bar called me after I was already 3 hours out, and I wasn't going to turn back for it. One of my friends picked it up and overnighted it to me here, so I have money! Yay! But anyway, so I got in at 11 on the dot last night, very tired, but happy. It was dark when I got here, obviously, but this morning when I got up and looked outside, I remembered why I love it here. There's snow on the ground, trees everywhere, and a mountain out the back door. The friends I'm staying with are amazing folks (Hi Jenni! :D ) and they live in married student housing almost next to campus. There was a job fair on campus I was meeting Jenni at around 1, but I got up and headed over at 11 to go see some folks in the drama department. The big reason I wanted to go over there was to see if my graduation application had processed. Guess what ladies and gents....


*fanfare and streamers* Yes, after five years I'm finally official. And holy crap I'm excited about it. I still don't know what I'm going to do with it, but I have a degree! :)

Today, for those Catholic-type folks out there, was Ash Wednesday. I went to mass with Jenni and Gio for the first time in, well, a long time. It was really nice. I had already made the decision in my mind that when I moved home I would start going to church with them again, and going tonight reminded me why. Can I just point this out real quick? The season of Lent is the metaphorical "going through the desert" and reflection about your life, coming out at the end of Lent with more understanding and peace than when you went in. I am going to be leaving the literal desert, and over the next few weeks will be going through a lot of change and reflection about my life, and will be starting a new journey in a new place that gives me peace. The best part is that I'm starting this journey today (Ash Wednesday) and will be finishing up my move right before Easter. Can I time things or what? How awesome and metaphorical is that??? lol. I love it. Just one more coincidence that makes me believe that I'm doing the right thing at the right time. I can't even describe to you the peace I have here. I walked to campus today. Actually walked somewhere. Without having to be alert or wonder if I'm going to get hit up for change by a hobo. (Not to knock the Vegas bums...they really are the nicest bums I've ever met.) Whenever I come here I get greeted like I've been away for years, which is really a nice feeling. It's good to know you're loved. The whole atmosphere is different, obviously, but physical geography aside, there's something that I just can't describe that makes Missoula an amazing place. I have definitely made The Right Choice.

Monday, February 23, 2009

All Aboard...

...for the Vain Train! Sorry fellow bloggers, I'm having a very self-centered day today. Took some funny pics out on the Strip earlier this evening...

High fiving he clown outside Circus Circus

Crazy hat in a random gift shop. I didn't realize at the time that our faces matched...

A little butt-grabbing outside the Riviera

And my new haircut. Which I LOVE.

So I saw this over at Mama Loco the other day...and when I did it, it was scary accurate. What you do is type in your name and then "needs" in the search bar of Google and see what comes up. Here were my results:

Lauren needs...

- attention. Yes! Yes I's true. I'm spoiled.

- a new home. SO TRUE! I'm going to be moving again here in like...3 weeks! Story about that later.

- a dentist. Omg, yes. I have the Grand Canyon in my right molar. And it hurts.

- your help. I always need help. Especially now! Gonna need help movin!

- to get inspired. Yup. I don't know what to do with myself anymore...I need to figure out something!

They're all so very true, lol. But yeah, thanks for coming along with me on my little ride of vanity for today. My friend and I are packing and getting ready to leave on a road trip home tomorrow, YAY! So I'll update on a couple things later, like the moving bit, this job thing, and life in general.

Oh, and I never found my wallet. Boo. I'm getting everything replaced. Talk about a pain!

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Prayers please!

I don't have a whole lot to say at the moment, but I've lost my wallet...and I think it's gone gone. Like, someone is running around with my useless debit cards gone. I pray to St. Anthony, but he and I don't get along for some reason, I'm not quite sure why. But if you guys could just send some good vibes this way, maybe by some chance my wallet will turn up. That would be fabulous. Thank you!

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Cocoa in the Prewash

I love this entry's title. When the words came out of my mouth, I said, "Oh, I have to write that down, that's a good one." It sounds like it should be a song or something, lol. I just happened to be loading dishes into my dishwasher (got the urge to actually DO something with myself today), and some cocoa powder remnants drifted off one of my dishes into the prewash compartment on the washer door. Hence. I just know that there's some life analogy there - like we could all use a little sweetness in the not fun parts of life (cause let's face it, dishes aren't really high on most people's list of fun things). However, I'm not really eloquent enough to properly put it into words lol. If you think of a better one, leave it in the comments! I'd love to hear what you think. :)

Admittedly, I was going to clean all day today, but didn't really get around to doing anything until 2pm because I slept so long. I woke up this morning feeling...heavy. Not heavy like fat, but you know when you sleep really deeply and you wake up feeling almost more exhausted than when you went to bed? That kind of heavy. Ironically enough, I weighed myself today and I've lost another 5 pounds. That makes 25 pounds in about 4 months. The weird part? I've done NOTHING! Nothing. Not a thing. I've basically stressed it all off. Not really the diet I would recommend, but I won't complain about the weight loss. Anyway, so I was slow as molasses this "morning" (it was more like noon when I finally drug out of bed) and when I did get around to doing things, I went first to Target to get TP and paper towels...because I was out of both and the situation was pretty dire. I've been avoiding it as long as I can, seeing as every time I go to Target I find 4,508 things that I just *can't* live without. I was really forced into it this time though, seeing as I was out AND I have a friend coming to stay with me, and it's sort of rude to request that your guests bring their own roll of toilet paper in their carry-on.

I really haven't done much of anything in eons, and I think that's when it all started to go downhill. I do tend to have a bit of winter depression, which I thought wouldn't really bother me this year, being in a place that's so warm most all the time. However I think it's the sunlight that I need, and thanks to daylight savings and our Earth's rotational wanderings, there's really nowhere I can go fix that. It's ok though. Do any of you have this problem? What do you do to keep from getting the Winter Doldrums?

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Laughter. I'd forgotten.

Melodramatic? Yes. Yes it is. But that's me. I'm in theatre, it's part of the business. I'm also a Leo, so just compound that drama. Before I get too far, I'm going to just say something here. There are a lot of things about myself that I readily admit to. I'm sometimes overly dramatic. I'm a spoiled brat. I can sometimes be a whiner (...nah...really??? lol). I can sometimes be a bitch. I'm a complete dork most all the time. I'm cubby. I'm vain. I can be both incredibly selfish or selfless depending on my mood. But this is me, and I am happy with me. All my wonderful friends put up with me and love me in spite of this. And I love them all dearly. I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world. I feel that with so many wonderful people in my life who love and accept me as is, crazy parts and all, that it's not really too much to ask that my significant other do the same. But for some reason, I was just never good enough. I didn't know how to "behave." All my friends are idiots. *pause* ExCUSE me? No. You can ream me down to the ground, but do NOT. EVER. Say things like that about the people I love. UGH! So mad. Good riddance. I don't need it. In case you can't tell I feel better today. I still hurt - a lot - but I know it's for the best, and the feeling of possibility is starting to overtake the feeling of what did I do wrong. I had just reached the point where I was so confident in myself that I could just be me and that was ok, I accepted me. And I feel like over the last year I've slowly degraded into second guessing myself again and settling. No more my friends. No more. You like me or you don't, and whichever you choose is fine. But I can't keep compromising myself. Which every single one of my friends told me in some form during this whole mess. I'm sorry guys, I should have listened. I should have. But I was blinded by love. It had to happen, and now I just have to pull myself up by the bootstraps and get to gettin'.

This being Valentine's Day, and me being in my current state of affairs, I spent the day at work, and my evening at home alone. I'm not asking for pity, I'm just saying. So I've been watching comedy central and they're having a run of really great comics. Two of these I loved in particular. First, I watched Bill Engvall and laughed till I cried. He's my favorite of the Blue Collar guys really. If you get a chance the show I watched was 15 Degrees of Cool. Hilarious. The second, Christopher Titus. I've never seen him before, but they've been advertising him all week with his new special Love is Evol. Let me tell you folks, he made me feel so much better about myself and laugh because I knew exactly what he was talking about. So this evening I've sat here, eating my leftover chicken curry and some ice cream, laughing my ass off. It's been very therapeutic. I haven't had a laugh till I cry in some time, which is really sad since I used to do it almost daily. I'm excited for those days again. I have a friend coming into town on Tuesday, so we're going to go have fun. Then I'm going home to Missoula for a week to see all my other friends and maybe get a job and house set up. One step at a time. OH. I will say that in a serendipitous moment I discovered that my freshman year roommate, who is a good friend of mine (Hi Autumn!), is going to be in town the same time I am! AND, not only that, she is looking to maybe move back to Missoula the same time I am as well! It's a sign, surely. We were thinking perhaps it would be fun to live together again and make a new start. Full circle and all that. So we're going to go look around for houses while we're both there. I can't lie, I'm really excited about this. The timing is too good for this not to be what I'm supposed to be doing. I'm going to let things happen now instead of trying to make them happen. It's worked well for me was when I started pushing things that is starting getting ugly. I just have to let things do what they're going to do. Plus, I don't really have the time or energy to worry about it anymore.

Another thing about me is that I'm totally random, in case you couldn't tell from my other posts. :) In all of this tv watching, I just saw the cutest commercial ever. It bumps the Butt Dialer to number two I think as my current favorite commercial. So I have posted it for your enjoyment. It just gives you a good feeling inside...and the funny and best part is that it's for Absolut Vodka lol. Alrighty folks, I've yammered on enough for this evening...I think I have a small novel of a post here lol. Thanks for all your support, it's really appreciated! :D

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Catastrophic Failure

Catastrophic Failure: a sudden and total failure of some system from which recovery is impossible.

This is how I feel right now. I never talk about my relationship on this blog, for good reason, but I will say today that my boyfriend of a year and half broke it off today and I feel like I'm dying on the inside. He has been my first serious relationship and although I am a strong woman I feel like I want to crawl in a hole and cry myself to oblivion. I feel lame and pathetic, and I'm sorry for putting that right out there for the world to read, but talking about it is the only way I know how to get over it. How do you heal a broken heart?

And what do you use to clean up broken dreams? Because there is broken dream all over my apartment and it's a mess.


I need a beer.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Think, think, think...

So I've started to commit myself fully to a contingency plan. For those of you that don't know me, this is really not usual. I fly by the seat of my pants always, much to the chagrin of my mother. However, this particular situation I find myself in I think maybe requires some extra planning. Just in case. I'm still not ready to commit to anything until the very last possible second, because you never know what might happen! That said, here's what's going on in my head as of today. I have a lot of feelers out for jobs right now, and a couple set up interviews, so I'm hoping something will come of all that. HOWEVER, if lady luck shuns me (we are not friends, I don't know why) I think I will be heading back to Missoula. My original plan was to go to Billings and live with a friend of mine. This changed for a few reasons. One, I would really feel bad for imposing like that...I hate the fact that I can't stand on my own two feet. I'm trying very, very hard to do so, even though it may not seem like it. The other reason is that he's not really in a position to have me freeloading either. He's actually running an independent office to raise money for the Democratic party in Billings, and their donations are not going as well as had hoped. Unfortunately, that venture might also have close, and that would break my heart because he's trying as hard as I am (more so, even) to keep the office running. So if any of you would like to support the Montana Dems...I know where you can make donations! ;) But I'm not here to sell you on anything, so back to business. I've decided that Missoula would be best for me for a couple reasons. Let me preface by saying that after all this mess I've realized (which I'm sure I knew all along, I was just taking it for granted) that really all I want out of life is to be happy and self sufficient. I don't care what I do, I don't care where I am. I want to make enough money to live comfortably and not have to make the choice between paying the gas bill or buying groceries. I want to be around people who love me. I want to be somewhere I enjoy. I want to have fun with what I do everyday. Missoula, for me, houses most of this. I have very dear friends there, I adore the town, and even keeping the same job I have I would at least enjoy myself, and also have the opportunity to work some with other folks I know doing small shows around town. I called the Michael's in Missoula and they - conveniently - have an opening coming up right around the time I would need to be moving. I feel like this is almost a sign. And I'm a big proponent of signs. Don't ignore! They are there for a reason. Anywho, so there's that. I could get a job transfer. My friend Jenni (*waves* Hi Jenni! ;D ) told me about this really cool low income houses that are popping up all over Missoula. Best part? They're built super-green! If you get the urge, go check out the organization at their website: HomeWORD. Seriously cool. They're nicer than the place I'm living in now (which is nice! I'm a house snob...I admit.) and they're LOW INCOME. And GREEN. I'd move back just to live in them lol. So bonus on that. I downloaded some rental applications and I'm going to try to get rolling while I wait on getting my big break here in Vegas, 'cause this not being my first housing rodeo, I know that it can take forever to get applications processed. I have to say that today, I'm almost excited about the fact I might move home, but there's no doubt I would miss Vegas. I can always come back though. ;)

So, in case you weren't aware, I'm a total foodie. And can I just tell ya'll how much I LOVE Top Chef? Love it! I have to say that this season, Carla has been my favorite from the start.

What up Carla?!? Every time they do the little narrative blips for themselves she always has me laughing. Of course she wanted to be a drama kid at first and then she turned to cooking, and I pointed at the TV and said, "SEE?!? It's not just me!" my empty apartment, lol. She's made it to the Final Four and I'm stoked I have to say. She's just so cute! I hope she wins. Yay Team Carla!

I'm really seriously considering this cooking thing...which is a reason for me to stay here. We have three culinary schools that are a pretty big deal. I just don't know if I'm ready to go back to school. And then there's the cafe idea still....

I'm just on a jabbering streak this evening! I could go on and on and on, but I think I'm going to end here before I bore you all to tears. I do want to say thank you to the lovely ladies that stopped by my blog today to say hello and welcome me to SITS! I'm trying to make the rounds and return the favor. :)

OH! As a side note, ya'll like the new layout? I'm trying to decide if the font is too hard to read on the green or not...but I like it. If you can't read it though it defeats the purpose, lol. So do tell me!

Saturday, February 7, 2009

It got ugly. Coyote Ugly. ;)

Wow... what a weekend lol. It really wasn't as uber exciting and hyped as that title makes it sound, I promise. I worked mostly, but with Amber here I'd meet her after I was done and we stayed out for a while. On Friday, Amber, Mandy (her sister), her mom, and myself had a brief visit to the Cathouse in the Luxor. We got escorted in, no cover, free drinks. Now, the actual look of the club, totally cool. The people in the club...were clubbers. You know the kind. Tube tops and sequin minis aplenty. As a side note, you know when you watch tv and you see those shows with crazy folks in clubs or on the street and you say to yourself "No one does that!" Yeah, all those folks are here, lol. It's really quite odd. But anyway, so we went, stood around for a few minutes, and left. Check that off the list of things to do. The next night I met them in NYNY, and had run into a fellow who was giving out wristbands to get into club Rok. Mom decided to turn in early and gave me her wristband, so we went and waited in a huge line to get in. After 15 minutes we decided we weren't getting anywhere and headed over to Coyote Ugly, since we had free drink passes for there. On the way across the casino, we ran into another guy handing out VIP passes and he, also, escorted us right in, no cover, no waiting. And I will tell you loyal readers, if you want to go to clubs here, THAT is the way to do it. Ask for an escort. More than likely they will and you look much cooler. It also helps if you're female and are wearing something low cut. Shallow, yes, but it is Vegas after all. Now would be a good time to point out that while Mandy and Amber were all gussied up for going to the show, I showed up in my bright green "Steve Happens" tshirt and blue jeans. Rock on. Did I feel underdressed? Yes. Yes I did. But it doesn't really matter here, so that's good. So we get escorted into Coyote Ugly and we actually had a really good time. We stood around in a clump for the most part, the bar was packed, but the music was good (read: loud), the atmosphere was relaxed, and the crowd was a decent one. Not a tube top or sequin mini in sight. And the Coyotes cracked us up. I would actually go back, and that's saying something, considering I don't really "do" clubs, especially Vegas clubs. So yeah, good evening. I will admit, part of me really wants to dance on the bar (free shot if you do!) and kinda wants to be a Coyote girl. The other part me realizes I'd be the chubbiest Coyote in existence and also that I can NOT dance and reminds me this is a bad idea. If fed enough liquor part number two might go to sleep, but I don't think I'd really like to test that theory. Maybe for my next will be the big 25. Good time to do something stupid lol.

Other than that it's business as usual. I'm still trying to find a magic sum of money to keep me going. I'm still trying to sell framed prints of my photos, so if anyone out there in interweb-land is interested or knows someone who might be, do let me know! Shoot me an email or leave a comment. You could do so even if you didn't want a picture. I love comments. :) Oh, on that note, I would like to point out that I've decided to give SITS a try *points to snazzy banner on sidebar*. It's a community of bloggers who visit and support each other through comments. I would encourage any of you with blogs to go over and check them out! I found them through Maybe If You Just Relax, a blog I love *again points to sidebar link* and would encourage you to go read. Which I believe I did in a previous post. I have to admit, making that step in my blogging is kind of scary... going "public"....I'm not really up to the same caliber as most of the other blogs I read. I'm not eloquent, I ramble on, I whine a lot, and I'm always afraid I'm going to wind up offending someone by accident.... but we shall see. Maybe they will like me too. :)

Rockstar bar. I'd go back. ;)

Oooo....Someone's hardcore! ....and it is NOT me....

Now that really is a great billboard. For any liquor too....

And just to start a collection of me on sofas, there's this. *vanity moment*

Friday, February 6, 2009

Oh and by the way....

....check out my FREAKING AWESOME MP3 PLAYER! It's a mixtape! That's right 80's children...a mixtape. With SKULLS. And PURPLE. The amount of awesome is overwhelming, I know. *is way too excited over something so little* So in case you wonder about all these songs I talk about, or want some tunes while you're catching up on my *so* exciting posts... it's all right there for you! I'll be adding as I think of songs, there's only a handful on it right now. But yeah...awesome! K. I'm done. Promise. :D

Thursday, February 5, 2009

The point of ridiculousness

Well guys, I've reached it. The POR. The point of ridiculousness. And I'm actually not helping myself at this moment by attempting a blog entry. Hang on just a moment.

*toodles off*

Well, I've come back hours later and feel much better. My original plan was to take a shower and start a load of laundry and dishes before I came back to finish my entry. However, I had forgotten that my friend Amber was coming into town today! She called me a little while after I had started the laundry and I was like, "OH! That's right! You're in town today!" So I of course then went to google to find her hotel (she's off the Strip just a hair) and was on my way for a day on the town! Her hotel wasn't far off the Strip, so she and her mom and I just walked the rest of the way. We went and did the usual Bellagio/Caesar's routine and then grabbed a pizza on the way back to the hotel at a new pizza place called Avenue A. Delish, in case you wondering. Amber is here for URTA, so she's got auditions tomorrow morning through the afternoon. I work tomorrow from 9 to 3:30, so that works out really well actually. She's going to call when she's done with all her stuff and we'll putter around and take more pictures on the Strip and go non-shopping. I say non-shopping because neither one of us really have the money to go real shopping. It's ok though, because with the right people non-shopping can really be entertaining. :)

Soooo anyway. I was blabbering on about the point of ridiculousness earlier. I don't really remember what I had planned to say about that, but it has gotten a little silly over here. I need to sit down and seriously weigh my options. By sitting on my butt under a blanket and watching tv I'm not accomplishing anything except the epitome of patheticness. I will no longer be pathetic. This is me picking myself up. I have to quit this "oh I'll do it later" business. Cause later is gonna sneak up on me and I'll still have done nothing and then I'll have to throw something together last minute...again. Even with my unplanned adventure this afternoon I still managed to get some dishes and my laundry done, so that's a bonus. We'll see how tomorrow goes, depending on how long we're out tomorrow evening I might try to get the table cleaned off and finish up the kitchen. I am ashamed of the kitchen, to be quite truthful. It's a mess. It's well-used though, and that's a good thing. :)

Oh, and just because I'm me and I'm random, I'm posting my current favorite commercial for your viewing enjoyment. It makes me smile every time I see it for no reason in particular. Also, following are some photos I took today during our travels. :)

Ceiling of Bellagio entryway.

Statue in a fountain outside Caesar's.

The "show" in the Caesar's Place Forum Shops

Wednesday, February 4, 2009


This is just going to be a quick post, I'll write a "real" one later...but seriously, this is my upstairs neighbor. Now, I usually try to make sure that this blog is non-offensive and family friendly so, with that in mind I will warn you that there is some "harsh language" in the song (the video doesn't change, it's just the one picture) so don't say I didn't warn you. That said, enjoy! :D

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Going green

Hello all. So I've kinda been going on this green kick. It's not a bad thing it just kinda hit me all at once. I've been trying to make an effort to not be so wasteful, my most successful method being using my reusable shopping bags when I go out. This is good on two counts. Not only does it help the environment, but it also keeps me from getting too crazy with what I buy. It's a win-win really. I've also talked to my apartment complex about getting recycling bins for the newspapers out by the mailbox, and they said they could call the garbage company and see if they can't add them. It always bothers me on those days because the garbage cans are overflowing with paper that could so easily be's just a waste. Also, now having worked at Michael's I realize that there is a lot of stuff they do that's incredibly wasteful. I think I signed something when I hired saying I wouldn't tell about "inner workings," but I am just going to say that I'm going to call the head office and see if there's anything I could possibly do to get them to recycle as well. I'm sure it's true of most corporations, but you know, one step at a time here lol. Lastly on the "green" note, I had the best salad ever today. Not really anything to do with the environment, but pretty darn tasty! know, green. :)

I actually had a pretty remarkable day today. Out of nowhere solution to my rent problem for this month appeared. I also found out that I have a couple hundred spare dollars that I knew nothing about, which is kind of what I needed as a cushion really. I used a smidge of it to buy some frames today (on sale!) so I can maybe sell some prints of photos I've taken to make some extra cash. Cross your fingers for me that this works. Also, and I had forgotten about this entirely (sorry Jess!), I'm going to try to get my VitaMark stuff going here. Of all places, Vegas should have some folks that would want good, healthy products. If anyone out there on the interwebs is curious about the VitaMark stuff, please feel free to contact me. I personally stand behind the products...I love the cookies and the limu and really feel super when I eat them. I've been taking the vitamins the last week and I'm starting to feel a little better. At least like getting out of the house! It's sad I need a kick in the butt to leave the house, but the current (and often instantaneous) ups and downs I've been having have been leaving me emotionally drained and not wanting to go out and really do anything. Now all of this sudden miraculous good fortune does NOT mean that I'm sitting pretty, it just means I've - yet again - scrapped by on the fish and loaves theory. However, I'm confident in the fact that if I put faith in the fact I'll be provided for that I will be. It continually works for me, and it's all I have going right now. So here's hopin!